A Problem of More Than Math

i've got to ask
your life moves so fast
do you ever look around
to see what's going on

and i've got to know
because my life moves so slowly
will you ever turn around
and realize that i'm gone

i can't keep up with you
you won't keep pace with me
i guess this is one of those cases
where we'll have to agree to disagree

but for this one moment
train A has met train B
and though it's only ephemerally
i have you, and you have me

The Middle

it's one or the other
the middle's no fun
let's either progress
or this relationship's done

i'm already impatient
and i've waited enough
a long distance love
is already too tough

so one or the other
i'm letting you choose
either keep me in your life
or please let me loose

deja vu

and what if this summer infatuation
goes, and i realize that's all it was?
this season has always been one of
restlessness, boredom, and lust.

skype

it'd be nice to see your face again,
but if you won't show it, that's okay too;
sometimes i just need a reminder
of why i do what i do.

it'd be nice to hear your voice,
but if you won't speak, that's okay too;
just don't blame me if my feelings falter
and lose their grasp on you.

distance

you're a few hundred miles away
and not just physically;
i cling to the momentary relief
i experience when you text me.

'out of sight, out of mind',
in this situation, does not apply.
the thoughts of you that fill my head
reinforce you can't be mine.

Inevitable

you're much too far
and much too busy
to be the one for me,

and yet i still
hang on to you
knowing this can't be.

everyday, my mind
reminds me that
this relationship's a joke;

so is it bad
that silly me
still can't help but hope?

This One's Actually for You.

is it selfish of me to say
that i miss you terribly
when i was the one to make you cry
by absolving you of me?

i was too unfair to you.
i figured i had no other choice,
but my heart has the slightest ache
knowing i will no longer hear your voice,

and i hope you find someone better -
not just better - you deserve the best.
she'll be nicer, and cuter,
and allow her emotions to invest
in the relationship and in you.
when you're with her, you won't feel pressed
to force conversation or force a smile,
and at night, you could actually rest.

i'm sorry i could never say 'i love you',
though you said it every night;
i'm sorry i couldn't be the one
forever by your side;
i'm sorry i could never say 'i love you'
but i didn't want to pretend;
i'm sorry i could only hold your hand
when you told me you didn't want this to end.

and i hope you move on as fast as you can -
don't sulk about me for too long - i'm not worth it.
and i hope you'll be able to open up to others,
because i know you have trouble with it.
and i hope in the near future, you'll finally choose
to talk to me, but if not, that's fair.

but enough apologies, and enough with the hopes -
thank you for the love
and for being there.