repression

when i think of you nowadays
i try to convince myself
that you're just a bittersweet memory

but that whiff of nostalgia
still tingles my senses
telling me, even now, i'm still not truly free

i was sure after all those years
i would have put these first love feelings away
why did i have to pass
by you today?

and why did i have to pass
by your new love too?