This One's Actually for You.

is it selfish of me to say
that i miss you terribly
when i was the one to make you cry
by absolving you of me?

i was too unfair to you.
i figured i had no other choice,
but my heart has the slightest ache
knowing i will no longer hear your voice,

and i hope you find someone better -
not just better - you deserve the best.
she'll be nicer, and cuter,
and allow her emotions to invest
in the relationship and in you.
when you're with her, you won't feel pressed
to force conversation or force a smile,
and at night, you could actually rest.

i'm sorry i could never say 'i love you',
though you said it every night;
i'm sorry i couldn't be the one
forever by your side;
i'm sorry i could never say 'i love you'
but i didn't want to pretend;
i'm sorry i could only hold your hand
when you told me you didn't want this to end.

and i hope you move on as fast as you can -
don't sulk about me for too long - i'm not worth it.
and i hope you'll be able to open up to others,
because i know you have trouble with it.
and i hope in the near future, you'll finally choose
to talk to me, but if not, that's fair.

but enough apologies, and enough with the hopes -
thank you for the love
and for being there.